In 2010, I am learning to embrace that God has made me fearfully and wonderfully made. Therefore, I should not be a shamed of my own power or sexuality, which is just as much a part of me as everything else I have in CHRIST. I am learning to celebrate the way He made me, knowing my full and everlasting worth in HIM. Valuing HIS influence on me, and asking HIM everyday to give me wisdom and to teach me how to use my POWER well. I am learning to let him mold and shape me according to his word, will, and awesome image. Perhaps that is why my heart feels compelled to dress differently now ( than I did in this picture) than I did before. Knowing that He was not ashamed of me before and I am not ashamed of Him or how he is “upgrading me” now.

With these changes God has given me a king/ a soul mate … who sees me with his heart and listens to my past with great understanding and compassion for the person I was back then. God has given me A REAL man to share my life with … a man in love with my heart, mind, and soul who knows my worth and understands that outside beauty fades with age so all that matters is my soul.

I am so blessed with my soul mate - a man that finally loves, trusts, and respects me. A man that I have been training my whole life (through many bad relationships) to know how to love and respect unconditionally. A man that God has given the courage to accept that although I have a past … where my purity was stolen by childhood sexual abuse - I am healed and restored in JESUS CHRISt that strengthens me . So, no matter how much I abused myself, others, and my own sexuality (in the past) and made so many mistakes with my life, before I knew God I am still a QUEEN. I am still worthy of love and respect, especially now that I found my peace in JESUS as God’s little girl.

Thanks, DAD. Thanks God for teaching me who I am in you, so I can walk unashamed and blameless before you … repenting of my sins and accepting the mercy you extend to me, expressed on the cross . Thanks for making me your little princess and a lady, once again. Aware and in control of her power and beauty - from deep within.